Hi, my name is Marissa. I'm a 21 year old Boston College student and marathon runner. I have a passion for fitness, running and nutrition as well as music, art, concerts, playing instruments, marching band, cheerleading, fashion, Neuroscience, Psychology, cooking, Boston, movies and of course certain tv shows (The OC and One Tree Hill in particular).
This blog is for things that I like and also to inspire a healthy lifestyle for myself and others. I love sharing interesting things with the world and hope that I can help people along the way.
My goal is to get healthy and REMAIN healthy for life - Eat better, exercise, and just be the best version of myself. Just watch me.
SW: around 145-147 (6/1/11)
CW: 115.6 (5/5/13)
This is your life. Are you who you want to be?
I’m finding it really difficult to relax. Nights are the worst.
Edit: please help?
This is my rant about the future and how scary and awful it is to think about…
I see other people who have their life together, or at least a plan that is well thought out. They’re doing something prestigious, important and worthwhile with their academics and future careers.
And then there’s me. I feel like I’m always stuck…never really going anywhere.
I have no idea what grad school programs I want to look into/apply to.
I should be working in a different psychology lab than I am currently in right now that is better suited for my career focus.
I should really be figuring out a senior thesis idea.
I should probably be thinking about preparing for the GRE.
There are just so many things that I know I should be taking care of and figuring out, but any time I think about them I get extremely anxious, stressed and upset. I’m struggling to find a direction…I never feel like what I’m doing at this school and in my studies is important or meaningful in any way. I keep being told I won’t be able to find a job/pay off my college loans/get into grad school after I’m done here.
All of this just makes me upset. I want it to go away but it won’t.
I wonder if I’m enough.
For many reasons:
I have to go “home” on Friday….whatever that is. I don’t want to go, I want to stay here.
I have so much crap to still do.
I don’t know what to make of certain situations.
I’m stressed. anxious. concerned. confused. sad.
So there’s all that.
oh, and One Tree Hill made me cry. a lot.