Hi, my name is Marissa. I'm a 21 year old Boston College student and marathon runner. I have a passion for fitness, running and nutrition as well as music, art, concerts, playing instruments, marching band, cheerleading, fashion, Neuroscience, Psychology, cooking, Boston, movies and of course certain tv shows (The OC and One Tree Hill in particular).
This blog is for things that I like and also to inspire a healthy lifestyle for myself and others. I love sharing interesting things with the world and hope that I can help people along the way.
My goal is to get healthy and REMAIN healthy for life - Eat better, exercise, and just be the best version of myself. Just watch me.
SW: around 145-147 (6/1/11)
CW: 115.6 (5/5/13)
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I don’t know why, but I was feeling really sad last night and today.
All of my energy was spent preparing for the marathon. I poured my heart into training. I spent so much time tending to my leg so that I could make it through and see the finish line. I went to the expo two times and spent almost all day there getting myself excited.
And then some bastard took that all away and ruined a great day. And now I have nothing left in me, all of the energy has been drained and I am left with nothing but an empty feeling inside of me and heartbreak for other people.
I am relieved that we have caught this person, but I guess I’m still in a weird state.
Last night my campus went crazy and there was a huge outdoor mosh pit with music blasting. I was feeling left out, so I went to go check it out. When I got there, I saw everyone having fun and really enjoying themselves. And then I just couldn’t feel that…I couldn’t feel joy or have fun with everyone else. I just felt like I didn’t fit in and there was such a disconnect.
I know I’m still stressed about getting my thesis finished, and maybe once that is done I’ll feel a little more at ease. I just feel really anxious and on edge, and I know everyone else is probably noticing that and feeling like they don’t want to be around me.
I really want to enjoy this last month of college…I hope I can.
The other night I ran 3 miles, which is the most I’ve done on my aching knee since the marathon ended. It wasn’t comfortable by any means, not to mention my legs felt like they were being held down by huge weights. It felt like I literally did not know how to run anymore. I was so incredibly exhausted after 3 miles.
I know I’m still recovering, it’s just hard to be in this state right now. I want to run and feel great! I miss that feeling…now it just hurts.
So, I’m off to the gym now and I’m gonna try again. And I probably won’t be able to run any more than 3 miles, but I’m hoping it will be a little more enjoyable this time.
I just need to get myself moving and doing something. I feel like the most lazy person ever.
I’ve been feeling kind of crummy about my body since the marathon ended about a week and a half ago. I know I have no reason to… It’s just that I haven’t been doing hardly any activity. It feels really weird to me that I’m not running at all. And when I’m not running, I think I feel less motivated to strength train. :(
I tried to run tonight, and I only got up to 1.5 miles before feeling knee pain. UGH. Just why?!!!
I still did some ab work at the gym after my fail of a run. I really need to get back into a routine, because I’m feeling really lazy, sluggish and tired all the time. I feel so much more invigorated when I work out regularly. I biked 8 miles on Tuesday, but it’s just not the same thing as a good run. Sigh.
Still about 115 lbs here, but I can definitely tell I’ve lost definition in my arms, stomach and legs. Time to change that.
I just want to run. :( I HATE knee problems.
Anyway, on a different note, I tried making overnight oats tonight. I don’t have chia seeds, so we’ll see how it comes out tomorrow morning. I made the Banana Cocoa version with cocoa powder, banana and blue agave nectar!