Hi, my name is Marissa. I'm a 21 year old Boston College student and marathon runner. I have a passion for fitness, running and nutrition as well as music, art, concerts, playing instruments, marching band, cheerleading, fashion, Neuroscience, Psychology, cooking, Boston, movies and of course certain tv shows (The OC and One Tree Hill in particular).
This blog is for things that I like and also to inspire a healthy lifestyle for myself and others. I love sharing interesting things with the world and hope that I can help people along the way.
My goal is to get healthy and REMAIN healthy for life - Eat better, exercise, and just be the best version of myself. Just watch me.
SW: around 145-147 (6/1/11)
CW: 115.6 (5/5/13)
This is your life. Are you who you want to be?
Now I’m just annoyed/irritated as opposed to sad. Don’t mind me. I will feel a lot better if I get this out.
I am just flat out tired of this. I’m tired of constantly seeing myself through the eyes of someone else or looking to others for my good emotions/self-esteem.
I feel like this all stems from the constant feeling of not being good enough. This has always been a problem for me, and I have yet to overcome it. Since I am never good enough for myself, I always convince myself that I will never be good enough for others.
Excuse my language, but… why should I give a fuck what others think? I don’t need other people to tell me who I am or how I should feel…and I certainly don’t need their approval to make me happy.
I need to keep working on understanding who I am so that this need for validation can just vanish.
You want to judge me on my decisions/actions/thoughts/emotions/opinions?
Go right ahead…because I’m just done.
I’m hoping that if I can work on this, I can stop letting stupid, irrelevant things bother me and take over my entire life.
I’m taking a stand. It’s time to do things for me. It’s time to be happy for me.
I’m finding it really difficult to relax. Nights are the worst.
Edit: please help?
A new Starbucks opened in Cleveland circle, so I was able to get my Skinny Peppermint mocha after my run - as always, delicious (and only 100 calories)! I am so excited we have a Starbucks so close to campus now.
Then my boyfriend made me dinner, because he is just the best ever. <3
Salmon Croquettes with Quinoa: amazingly delicious!!
He also surprised me with a Cookie Dough Luna Bar! Oh my gosh, words cannot express how much I love this boy. :) <3 I am quite lucky.
Now I have to attempt to be productive in studying for my neuroscience exam on Tuesday…yeah.
This is my Friday night…
I’m super exciting, haha.
I’m watching “With Tired Eyes, Tired Minds, Tired Souls, We Slept.”
I can’t believe this show will end next week - totally not ready!
I wonder if I’m enough.