Hi, my name is Marissa. I'm a 21 year old Boston College student and marathon runner. I have a passion for fitness, running and nutrition as well as music, art, concerts, playing instruments, marching band, cheerleading, fashion, Neuroscience, Psychology, cooking, Boston, movies and of course certain tv shows (The OC and One Tree Hill in particular).
This blog is for things that I like and also to inspire a healthy lifestyle for myself and others. I love sharing interesting things with the world and hope that I can help people along the way.
My goal is to get healthy and REMAIN healthy for life - Eat better, exercise, and just be the best version of myself. Just watch me.
SW: around 145-147 (6/1/11)
CW: 115.6 (5/5/13)
This is your life. Are you who you want to be?
Now I’m just annoyed/irritated as opposed to sad. Don’t mind me. I will feel a lot better if I get this out.
I am just flat out tired of this. I’m tired of constantly seeing myself through the eyes of someone else or looking to others for my good emotions/self-esteem.
I feel like this all stems from the constant feeling of not being good enough. This has always been a problem for me, and I have yet to overcome it. Since I am never good enough for myself, I always convince myself that I will never be good enough for others.
Excuse my language, but… why should I give a fuck what others think? I don’t need other people to tell me who I am or how I should feel…and I certainly don’t need their approval to make me happy.
I need to keep working on understanding who I am so that this need for validation can just vanish.
You want to judge me on my decisions/actions/thoughts/emotions/opinions?
Go right ahead…because I’m just done.
I’m hoping that if I can work on this, I can stop letting stupid, irrelevant things bother me and take over my entire life.
I’m taking a stand. It’s time to do things for me. It’s time to be happy for me.
I just needed to write it down I guess…but I can’t let it bother me.
Done with work for the day (woo hoo!) so I’m gonna go to Trader Joe’s and pick up some great stuff, come back and make myself something delicious, clean my room and maybe nap a little, watch One Tree Hill, then do my 7 mile work out and abs!
Also, I got the most amazing yoga pants yesterday from Forever 21 - they are so comfy. Not to mention a fleece running jacket for only $7!
Just got back to my empty dorm and it is a wonderful feeling. I’m so so happy to be back in Boston for my next semester. I just enjoy being here a lot more than my hometown, and home was getting to be a little too hectic for me. Although I won’t enjoy starting in on ridiculous amounts of studying and work; I love that I can make my own meals again (even though being cooked for is appreciated, I missed this), buy all the food that I like, and go to the gym! :)
I consider this to be more my home now than anything, especially since my family is moving here in the next few months (hopefully).
This semester I’m really planning on making some major changes to improve many areas of my life - work, academics, strength training, running, social life and my relationship. I need to work on time management, punctuality and productivity. Last semester wasn’t terrible but I wasn’t as successful at these things as I should be…I spread myself too thin. I need to recognize what is most important in my life and focus on that first.
The first step towards this will be quitting my waitress job. This will help me breathe a little easier…
Oh well, I am back earlier than everyone else and I love it. It’s so quiet and peaceful! Home sweet home.
Drinking some zen green tea with my favorite mug. :)
And why yes, that is The OC in the background. :P