Sweet Disposition

Feeling pretty sad today.

Wed, 19 Jun 2013 15:44:54 -0400

It’s been a while since I’ve felt this way. It’s been a while since I’ve needed to cry just because.

lowcaloriemolly: thehealthywarrior: Henry Cavill’s ‘Man of...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 00:43:02 -0400

lowcaloriemolly:

thehealthywarrior:

Henry Cavill’s ‘Man of Steel’ workout ~~(not an excuse to gif porn)~~

;___________;

Uh… I had to reblog. Henry Cavill *drool*

My dinner earlier tonight - a huge salad with spinach, broccoli,...

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 23:13:22 -0400

My dinner earlier tonight - a huge salad with spinach, broccoli, green pepper, tomato, veggie burger and horseradish hummus.

Yummy clean eating in my tummy.

Speed training tonight

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 00:18:12 -0400

It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be and I’m on track to log 35 miles this week. The rest of this week will be easy, tempo, and then long.

Really hoping for that BAA 10K PR in 10 days…

Fresh grapes, strawberries, baby carrots and a whole wheat bagel...

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 11:33:16 -0400

Fresh grapes, strawberries, baby carrots and a whole wheat bagel thin with peanut butter and banana.

Because I refuse to give myself a reason to eat junk today.

Luckily I’m working in the other lab that doesn’t have food everywhere…

Really struggling.

Wed, 12 Jun 2013 16:50:31 -0400

I’ve been feeling really bad about the way I’ve been eating lately….

I don’t know why, but it’s been hard for me to stay on a completely clean diet like in the past. I used to be so good with resisting sweets and other food because I just never really wanted them. I didn’t even crave them or anything..now I feel like that has changed. I have a harder time resisting temptation when there is so much food/cookies/bagels in lab and I’m sitting at a desk all day staring at them. I find myself just reaching for food because I’m bored or need something to munch on. I get hungry more often than I used to and I’m not sure why…I feel like I’m just eating way too much.

I’m still obviously maintaining a running schedule with 30 miles a week and training for the BAA 10K, which is probably why my body hasn’t changed drastically. But I feel like I’m still noticing changes in my body…flabby areas that I don’t think I’ve ever had before, a gross bloated feeling in my stomach, etc. Exercise doesn’t matter if you don’t eat well, and I definitely wouldn’t say I’ve been eating well. I feel like my weight has gone up to more around 117-118, which is not THAT different from 115-116, but it FEELS like it is much different when I look at my body (in particular in my stomach).

A part of me just wants to go back to the way I used to eat with a much stricter diet when people thought I was a little crazy… even though it may have been a bit disordered, at least I felt good about my body and my health. Now I just feel like a blob.

Honestly I just want to cry.

:’(

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Thu, 06 Jun 2013 09:44:43 -0400

curlscurvesconfidence:

I want to follow some of you guys!

Where has Marissa been?

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 23:54:00 -0400

I kind of stopped being interested in tumblr during all the craziness that was happening during the month of May. It was nice to be away for a little while and take some time to enjoy all the exciting things that were happening. Here are some updates:

1. I graduated from Boston College.

Yep, there it is. It feels so strange to think that this time in my life is over, but my time at BC is technically not over…I have officially decided to stay there for my Masters Degree for another 2 years. It will obviously not be the same as my undergraduate experience, though. I have moved back home and I’ll be commuting to campus because I cannot afford an apartment right now (especially in the BC area). It’s not ideal but this way I can save some money.

2. Went on vacation for a week to Hilton Head Island, SC with my boyfriend and his parents.

It was so incredibly beautiful there and I couldn’t have asked for a better time. Every day the weather was gorgeous (80 and sunny, no rain, not too warm). The beaches were amazing because the sand was flat and hard so you could run and bike right on the beach near the water. We played tennis, lounged at the pool and hot tub, got drinks at this great bar by the pool, ran on the beach (and at sunrise!), biked everywhere, worked out at a great gym, etc. I want to go back!!

3. Started work for the summer at BC.

Since I’m a graduate student now, I am able to get a summer graduate stipend ($6,000 for the whole summer which will go towards tuition). I’m working full time between two different research labs that I have been involved with the past 3 years as an undergrad. Today I got to sit in on an fMRI scan at Harvard, which was kind of exciting. Unfortunately traveling in every day is proving to be an interesting experience…I found someone to car pool with and it usually takes at least 40 - 50 min with all the traffic. I am already exhausted at the end of the day - feeling sleepy as I type this!

4. Training for the BAA 10K.

This race is on June 23rd and I am starting to get serious about my speed training in the hopes of a PR (under 51:30 perhaps?). My boyfriend helped me with speed work on the beach in Hilton Head, but I did it at 7 am on an empty stomach and it was incredibly rough - I nearly vomited after .25 mi at a 6:00 min pace (there were also tears. lots of them). Tonight I seriously worked on speed work again for the second week in a row and already noticed a huge difference:

.305 mi at 6:00 min pace

.75 mi at 7:00 min pace

1 mi at 7:26 min pace

I finally feel like I am maintaining proper form and hopefully building up my cardiovascular fitness. I have never pushed myself to run these paces before because it was not really required during my marathon training. I had never actually tried to run at a 6 min pace up until a week ago….I didn’t even know what it felt like or what to expect and I definitely panicked when I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I’m hoping now I can really work at possibly getting myself to hold a 6 min pace for a mile in the future…

I ate way too much tonight....

Wed, 15 May 2013 22:08:58 -0400

My roommates and I went out for dinner and drinks… Ugh I’m so full. :(

Between drinking and going out to eat, senior week is going to kill me.

Peanut Butter, Banana and blueberry oatmeal this morning!

Mon, 13 May 2013 08:37:00 -0400

Peanut Butter, Banana and blueberry oatmeal this morning!

That moment when you realize you really don't have any friends.

Mon, 13 May 2013 00:49:42 -0400

This is so accurate. :(

Mon, 13 May 2013 00:21:15 -0400

Anxiety: hey!

Me: what now?

Anxiety: Nothing, just wanted to worry you today.

Me: ...great

Anxiety: Hey your boyfriend/girlfriend didn't text you back, they're probably with someone else right now.

Me: ....

Anxiety: Oh your best friend hasn't spoken to you today either. They're probably sick of your shit.

Me: ....

Anxiety: Your parents said they're really proud of you..do you honestly believe that?

Me: ....

Anxiety: Where do you see yourself in a year? Oh wait, you can barely get through a day!

Me: ...shut up.

Anxiety: Will you ever rise to anything?

Me: Shut up!

Anxiety: Or are you always this pathetic? Lol

Me: Why can't you leave me alone!?

Anxiety: Because messing with your head is what I live for.

So. Sore.

Sun, 12 May 2013 19:47:56 -0400

Yesterday I did the 12 round workout at the Ring Boxing club. I’ve done it before, but it was different this time. I take it with “Big Tom” and that class seems to be a lot more cardio intensive (sprints, running up stairs, high knees, etc.) with more punching of the bag.

But this time it was with a different trainer, and it was really difficult…so many weight exercises, push ups, tricep dips, ab exercises, etc. My arms were shaking from barely being able to do all the reps he demanded and then I was told to get up and punch the bag.

My back and triceps are killing me today. I know this is good for me and these are the kinds of workouts I should be doing for tone, but I feel like I barely survived this workout. I’m not sure how many more of those I can do…I really hope it gets easier.

fitchris25: facelessmermaid: overweightnomore: kickedfit: So...

Sun, 12 May 2013 01:23:32 -0400

fitchris25:

facelessmermaid:

overweightnomore:

kickedfit:

So delicious! Having this as my post workout snack. And it’s all natural and helps with ice cream cravings!

why have I not not heard of this

we have a winner!

This would solve so many of my problems…

I WANT THIS FLAVOR.

Absolutely loving this new song, “Of Space and...

Sun, 12 May 2013 00:42:45 -0400

Absolutely loving this new song, “Of Space and Time”, from City and Colour. New album comes out June 14th and I can’t wait!

"People will love you. People will hate you. And none of it will have anything to do with you."

Sun, 12 May 2013 00:34:02 -0400

“People will love you. People will hate you. And none of it will have anything to do with you.”

- Abraham Hicks (via bnakey)

Tofu veggie stir fry and sweet potato with cinnamon.

Sat, 11 May 2013 20:18:32 -0400

Tofu veggie stir fry and sweet potato with cinnamon.

snapdraws: Apologies for the terrible image quality - I’m...

Sat, 11 May 2013 12:00:38 -0400

snapdraws:

Apologies for the terrible image quality - I’m lacking scanner access at the minute so I had to take these photos on my phone

I was reading hyperbole and a half’s blog entry explaining their experience of depression and decided to make another sketchy comic based on my experiences with anxiety, which is another mental illness I think people tend to misunderstand quite frequently

Hopefully this will be of use to some people - whether they suffer from anxiety themselves or if they just want to know more about it

I LOVE this.

Trying to get rid of the negativity tonight… 3 mi run and...

Mon, 06 May 2013 23:54:20 -0400

Trying to get rid of the negativity tonight…

3 mi run and 4 mi bike ride.

I have tried to eat better and avoid unnecessary junk…

115 lbs on the dot tonight (I already feel so much better now that I don’t have that bloat from last week).

Maybe I'm not really meant for anything at all...

Fri, 03 May 2013 23:01:00 -0400

Feeling so lost.