Hi, my name is Marissa. I'm a 21 year old Boston College student and marathon runner. I have a passion for fitness, running and nutrition as well as music, art, concerts, playing instruments, marching band, cheerleading, fashion, Neuroscience, Psychology, cooking, Boston, movies and of course certain tv shows (The OC and One Tree Hill in particular).
This blog is for things that I like and also to inspire a healthy lifestyle for myself and others. I love sharing interesting things with the world and hope that I can help people along the way.
My goal is to get healthy and REMAIN healthy for life - Eat better, exercise, and just be the best version of myself. Just watch me.
SW: around 145-147 (6/1/11)
CW: 115.6 (5/5/13)
This is your life. Are you who you want to be?
So I made this long post last night but it didn’t fully post, even though I tried it twice. Therefore this one will be even longer…sorry.
Last night my boyfriend made me dinner, because he’s amazing. :) I didn’t think it was possible to love a single person as much as I love him. <3 I was lucky to be able to spend so much time with him lately and you know what? I can say I’m truly happy.
Unfortunately my anxiety still produces silly thoughts. Sometimes I worry I will ruin things just by being me. I don’t want that to happen…he means way too much to me.
Anyway, I wish I took a picture of the dinner…it was delicious and not to mention adorable! I had a couple veggie/turkey burgers, roasted potatoes, homemade guacamole, strawberries and a some of a mango smoothie by Naked. Yum.
Today I did my 18 miler…this was a rough one. Yesterday I went Marathon Sports to get a new water bottle and GU gels, gummies and jelly beans so that hydrating along the way wouldn’t be a problem (They also gave me a free Luna bar!) I ate a decent breakfast, but was still pretty tired when I got up this morning. Regardless, I was doing pretty well for the first half of it.
Around the 10.5 mi mark as I was going up a big hill my legs started getting heavier and heavier and I started getting more and more upset. I finally had to slow down to a walk which was followed by me hysterically crying. I don’t really know what happened to me…I just got really emotional and then I couldn’t stop sobbing. [Has this ever happened to anyone? I’m confused…] I finally calmed down, grabbed some gatorade and continued to push through.
I finished all 18 miles, doing a total of about 18.4 in the end. I did 18 in 3 hours and a couple minutes, but I was not happy with this at all. I really was hoping for under 3 hours today…and I know I could have done it. I’m so frustrated and disappointed in myself that I hit some sort of mental block and it really slowed me down. :(
Oh well, at least I was able to finish all of it. After I had my free Luna bar (such a good flavor, btw), took a short nap and then went to treat myself at one of my favorite places; Paris Creperie. This is an amazing crepe place in Coolidge Corner.
I got a nutella frozen hot chocolate and a Rosemary Chicken crepe (rosemary infused with brie, Chicken, mushrooms, sundried tomatoes, and red onions).
So. damn. good.
My spring break is over. I don’t want to go back to reality tomorrow - classes, work, etc. This means more anxiety than normal and worrying about stupid things. Hopefully I hear if I got my summer fellowship soon…I would be doing research on eating disorders at the Harris Center at Massachusetts General Hospital. This is a great opportunity and something I would love to have. *crosses fingers*